Death

Wow.  That's all I really have to say.  Within the span of 3 days, 1/3 of my famliy members have died.  (Granted that's only 2...but I don't have very many family members that I am/have been close to in my life.)  I consider the family members I do have left to be very precious, and should be "handled with care." 

I recently re-connected with Uncle Mike.  He's been basicly everywhere in the world.  Guess thats a benefit of being with the military.  I would LOVE to get the chance to travel the world, but considering all the factors and limitations in my environment and surrounding community, I doubt very much if that will ever happen.  Especially with the line of work I am going into.  Social Workers are lucky if they make 30k/yr.  Yeah, not going to be fun.  Why couldn't I have been better acquainted with numbers?  Then I could be an Accounting major and get a STARTING rate of like 60-80k/yr.

Ughh.  FML--over and over again.

Right now, I'm just looking forward to spending the weekend with my boyfriend.  I just need to clear my head, screw it back on straight, and buckle back down.  I feel like a cat that is trying desperately to cling to a curtain with her claws, while the owner is trying to free her nails of the curtain.  I don't WANT to be moved from the curtain.  I LIKE THE CURTAIN!!!!!!! STOP IT!!

I was talking with my mother on Yahoo Messenger and I asked her to please not die, at least for a little while.  Because this spurt is really rather depressing, and I have too much to deal with already just trying to make it through school.  I don't need to be worrying about whether or not my family is making it through day-to-day life at home as well.  Grr.

I believe things happen for a reason though.  Perhaps I'll be able to get closer to "that" side of the family again.  (If they all don't decide to hold grudges...)  We shall see.

Right now I should be writing/finding examples for a paper I have to write that's due Monday...buuuuuuut I feel blogging is more important for right now.  My head hurts, I just want to go back to sleep (actually, to the gym would be nice too.)
But nope, can't do that.  I have class at 11-12:15, working 1:30-4:30, PA Meeting from 4:45-6:15, get my Music Makers folder back from Ryan, Music Makers from 7-9, and then--THEN maybe I can take care of myself.

Is it Friday yet?  This is my last stressful night for a while I hope.  Tomorrow night is Glee/Eastwick (and they're soon to cancel Eastwick.....FML--again and again), Thursday night is Kickboxing (which I will desperately need), and Friday night is Kickboxing/catch the bus to Luke's.    I need a weekend of pampering.  Perhaps a day at the spa?  Psh, yeah right.  Not with my budget.  Not hardly.  But thats where boyfriends come in??? ;) Haha.

Well, the best I can do is hang in there.  I hope both my gramps are doing ok.  One lost a sister and the other lost his spouse.  Not a good time on any side of the fam.  Hang in there everyone, things'll get easier soon, I hope!

Ok, I should probably get ready for class now. 

Love you all, and stick with it.  The semester is almost over!!!
x.o.x.o.
~Megan