Thursday, July 29, 2010

Inception

Okay, so I know this is supposed to be a blog about weight loss, not a movie review blog, however, Ryan and I just went to see Inception tonight and our minds are offically blown.

Waaaaaaaayyyy out of proportion.

It's amazing.

Written and directed by Christopher Nolan, alls I have to say is "whoa."  I want to buy this movie when it comes out.


Please go see it and tell me what you think.  :)

<3 Megan <3

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Megan's Miscellaneous Life

Hey all!

Mitchell jokingly commented today that I haven't written about him in about a month.  So, the first paragraph is dedicated to that.  I'm planning to have him come stay August 14th and 15th at my house, during which time I hope he'll be able to learn a lot more about me and where I come from.  I'd LOVE to get the chance to take him to Burlington to show him Champlain, and where I live while I'm there, but that will depend on gas money and if we're up for it.  I had a daydream today about Ryan, Mitchell, and I taking this trip to Burlington, and it made me smile like a cheshire cat.  It was wonderful.  <3  I hope we can make that happen.

In other news, I'm stressing about this paper I have to write.  My topic is the nature vs. nurture argument with a focus in identical twin studies.  It blows my mind to think about the morals and ethics behind splitting up identical twins for the purposes of these kinds of studies, however identical twins are the best possible resource we can use to figure out if nature/nurture/or both have a significant impact on personalities, behaviors, morals, ethics, and how someone lives their life.  Personally, I think it's a combination of both.  Nature and genetics can only go so far, and environmental influences can only do so much.  Together though, a complete human experience is formed.  Whoa.  Double rainbow.

My treat for finishing my paper and presentation on this topic?  Paramore concert this coming Tuesday.  My first ever well-known band concert.  I've been to an All That Remains concert with my ex, but Paramore I think is much more well known.  Here's a list of links to some of their more awesome songs:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A63VwWz1ij0  -Brick By Boring Brick

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RvnkAtWcKYg -Decode

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y-MaaxgdUT4&feature=avmsc2 -Pressure

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mgJ8BZi3vTA -Emergency

Yeah, it's going to be an awesome concert.  New Found Glory will also be present, as well as some other less-well-known bands.  Hopefully everyone will put on an amazing show.

Anywho, time for me to enjoy my night.  Thanks to all of you who are dedicated to me and who are following my life.  <3

Much love!

<3 Megan <3

All The Small Things

No, there's no Blink-182 reference here.  :(

This morning I made good choices.  For breakfast: Dannon Light and Fit Yogurt w/ some added granola, 1 large apple, and 2 pieces of wheat toast w/ peanut butter.  This is the first healthy choice I've made in a few days, and of course much of this is dependant upon what is available in the house.  I asked for yogurts and granola, and it showed up last night!  (Meaning that my mom went grocery shopping.)  XD

Now, a brief aside about yogurt.  <-Click the link, there's an awesome article about all the health benefits-for women in particular.  Dannon's Light and Fit products are AMAZING.  They make smoothies which are to die for, and an awesome yogurt.  (http://www.lightnfit.com/).  Trust me when I say they have good yogurt.  I'm an extremely picky yogurt eater.  Many I have tried in the past have been too liquidy, others too thick and gloppy.  Others when I tried to just get regular vanilla tasted like the plastic container that they came in.  Not Light and Fit!  The perfect consistancy, with real fruit pieces in the yogurt.  It's like a wonderland of awesomeness.

Peanut butter also has hidden properties that shouldn't be forgotten.  Check out this article.  Not only is it full of protein to keep you fuller longer, but it tastes wonderful! <3333333

Hopefully by the time my 12:30 class gets out, I'll only be a little hungry instead of ravenous.

Letcha know how it goes!

<3 Megan <3

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Crrraaaavvvviiinnggggssss

Have you ever worked in a drug store?  Or in an establishment that sells things that are all too easy to buy?  Grocery stores?  Etc?

Working the front of a drug store is horrible for people who are easily swayed to candy-licious temptations (namely, me.)

My entire 3 years at Kinney's, and once a month I get to see all this candy go on sale.  Now, I'm not big on just ANY candy, mostly it's chocolate that gets me.  (Ashley knows what I'm talking about.)  Hahaha.  Actually, even Ryan does too, I think.  When Kinney's was selling King Size Reeses for $1.00 a piece, like, how can you NOT resist that?  Seriously?

Okay, so back to the sane part of this post.  Most of you know that this is very bad.  Chocolate should not hold such a strong temptation over anybody.  Unfortunately, my willpower is weak when it comes to that, and it sucks being able to have all the time in the world to check out what's on sale, or think about what I'd like to have on my break (when I have the $ that is.) 

Being overweight and not wealthy, well, you see how this is a catch-22.  I'm trying to lose weight, but I have to go to work to make money.  And when I get money I think "Wow, I really need some chocolate on my break.  HOW AM I GOING TO MAKE IT THOUGH THE REST OF THE NIGHT???"  It's a vicious cycle.  I mean, I'm still "trying" to lose weight, but what does that really mean?

It means mostly I'm putting in half-assed attempts here and there once in a while to really try to turn my life around.  Unfortunately, when my routine gets bumped for some reason, it ends up shattering to a billion little tiny pieces.  Fail.  *Sigh*  It sucks when you finally be honest with yourself.  I want to thank those of you that have put in all the effort to motivate me and to keep me going, unfortunately I'm back to square one.  But I suppose it's not the number of times you get knocked back down that counts, it's how many times you get back up.  I'm going to keep doing the best I can for as long as I can.  I'm trying to get back into the 308 workout routine, but without Velvet there to help me along with everything, it just sucks.  I'm sick of being big, but I really do feel stuck.  It's like I won't allow myself to lose weight.  My body can put in the time and effort, but my mind still craves sugar-all the time. 

I think I need someone about my size and skill level to work out with.  I mean, maybe there's something online I could check out to find someone in my area to do stuff with?  Kind of like eHarmony, except this being for finding a workout buddy. 

I can't wait to get back to college.  At least there during my day-to-day activities I get some workouts in.  (Even if they are walking to Champ Farms at 3am for 3 Musketeers, Ashley's Ben & Jerry's, and a bag of Salt and Vinegar chips.)  I mean, you have to walk that hill.  (And that hill is a bitch when it wants to be, trust me.) 

Well then, now that that's out.  I kind of want some hot tea, so I'm going to go do that.

To those of you feeling stuck out there...I hear ya.

Much love.

<3 Megan <3

Sunday, July 18, 2010

It's Coming Back

My motivation is coming back.

You know what else came back?  High school.  Eden Ryan and I got to spend time together again like we once did in high school.  It brought back so many memories, and I think we're finally, truly  all good again.  I missed having the three of us together like we were last night.  It was absolutley wonderful. 

ALL HOPE HAS RETURNED!

<3 

Eden inspired me to get cracking on weight loss again.  (She doesn't know this, but that's okay.)  :)

So, before I lost my motivation again, I'm going to go start up my crunch/ab routine again.  Reverse crunches, I'm about to make you my *****.  <3

Thursday, July 8, 2010

My Pores Still Work

Hi, all!

Yesterday I got my exercise in!  Too bad it was 97 degrees outside, but you take what you can get I suppose.

I went on my 6 hr field trip with my Intro to Bio class I've been taking at CCV this summer.  Around 9:30-10am, we arrived at our first stop.  After a 15-20 min climb up a hill of about a 70 degree incline, we made it to our first site.  (This was when I almost passed out about three times from my heart working too hard-just FYI.)  I WAS keeping myself hydrated.  That is SUPER important on a day where the heat is through the roof.  However, my instructor thought that we all hiked on a regular basis or something so she went like 80 mph up the hill (that's legit-haha.)  Anywho, after finally arriving and noticing my skin seep sweat everywhere, I cooled off by listening to our instructor talk for about 10 minutes.  Whew.  Yep, sweat is rolling down my body everywhere.  Fantastic.

(Skip all the boring searches we did in the stream, our findings, and our next 45-50 min talk.) Actually-we did find a Northern Dusky Salamander which was cute, but that was about it.

Our next site after climbing back down the mountain was on the Mad River in Waitesfield.  WATER.  I WISH I'd had my bathing suit, because that is the most awesome swimming hole I've seen in a LONG time.  Ryan-we're going.  No questions.  Get in the car.  NOW.  Hahaha.  So, when we got there we ate lunch, and then talked for another 20-30 mins, THEN we got to go walk through the river.  OOOOHHH it felt SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO good.  Like, you have NO idea.  Unfortunately this site was out in the open sun.  And me being a redhead and all, I wasn't expecting that to go over too well.  Fortunately for me though, I was smart that morning and had brought sunblock to put on before we left.  As of now, I'm about three shades darker than I was pre-field trip.  Awesome!  I was thinking I would have had to reapply my sunblock more often than just the once in the morning because the sunblock was about a year old, and I had been sweating all morning.  Yup, my pores still work okay.

Regardless, this second site was MUCH more enjoyable.  No evil horseflies trying to get a chunk out of you, no 70 degree incline of a hill, and plenty of water to go around.  If I hadn't been worried about getting Beth's car all wet on our ride back, I would TOES have completely submerged myself.

It was all a good time.  My body still remembers how to sweat, and I made it out alive.

YAY!

<3 Megan <3

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Hourssss!!!

:)

So I'm a failure, I know.  Stop glaring at me.  I haven't blogged in like...I don't even remember how many days.  HOWEVER, if it matters to you, things are going great for me!  (Not necessarily in the whole weight loss area, but definitely for life in general.)  By the way-I haven't actually gained any weight per se, because I'm still at 260.  *Sigh.*

Anyway, hours!  Yay!  I asked for more hours at work becasue I was being dropped down to 5-10 hrs/wk at Kinney's, and I couldn't afford to only be working 10 hrs/wk.  So, after leaving a note with my boss explaining the situation-voila!  23 hrs per week, baby!!!!

I am very excited about all this.  Two weeks from Thursday I will be making major payments on my credit card to free up that money to buy my textbooks, and sometime this week I'll be getting my $52.70 that Ryan still owes me.  ;)  MONEY IS ON ITS WAY!!!  Maybe I won't have to be completely broke forever!

Also, regarding money.  I'm considering switching to TD Bank for all my banking needs.  However, I don't know about any monthly fees or minimum amounts of $ you have to have in your account at all times.  Ashley says that if I get a student account it's free, but I'm still a little worried.  I guess the best thing for me to do is to stop in and talk to someone after I get paid.  Another reason I'm considering switching is so that I can use the AWESOME ATM in Burlington.  It's like, hi-tech n' shit.

Toes.  In other news, Mitchell and I are now officially officially boyfriend and girlfriend (we've been dating, but now it has finally clicked.)  I am now the proud possessor of his class ring, and wear it all the time.  (Pssst...Ryan, I need to see you on Thursday so I can show you...and get ma' money!)  <3

We also did our first overnight up in Maine.  It was a WONDERFUL time.  <3  The only downside is that now I miss him.  I miss cuddling and I miss kissing and I miss being "couple-y" with someone.  He has very skillfully cracked open my "Single Lady" shell, and now I am putty in his hands...well...mostly.  Except for those times I want to be stubborn (comes with the red hair, and being an only child and all.)  We just fit.  Ryan told me about a month ago over the phone, "...its almost like you guys have just been waiting for each other.  He was looking for someone to be loyal and faithful, and you were looking for someone that actually wants to go places with his life, who you can keep up with, and who can keep up with you."  (*Note-not an exact quote...my memory sucks.  But that was the jist of it.*)  That stuck with me over the past month.  Whenever Mitchell and I have had miscommunication discrepencies, I remembered that.  It's very powerful because it's true.  We did it.  We found each other.  That means so much more to me than a small argument about what one word means to me versus what it means to Mitchell.  We're stronger than that.  We WILL do this thing and we will DO IT RIGHT.  Miscommunications don't happen all the time, but when they do, I'm proud of the fact that we can work through them TOGETHER as a TEAM, and actually work to see where the other person is coming from.  We don't yell, we don't scream, we don't throw chairs.  Like, did you KNOW that you can have an argument and not yell at someone?!  Haha.  :)  On another note, he always has a way of making me lay all my cards on the table.  I can't lie to him (I wouldn't even if I was able to-good relationships aren't built on lies,) and I can't beat around the bush.  Which is nice for a change.  Having someone to drag me out into the spotlight for inspection doesn't happen too often usually.  It's differen't with him-constant.  He questions me, and pushes me to think about what I just said.  (Hahahahaha...which is usually a riot.)  He says my name in the form of a question and the "what aren't you telling me" tone and I answer with a timid "yesss?"  Simple as that.  Almost Edward and Bella-esque, except he doesn't sparkle in the sun (well maybe, but only in my eyes), and I don't usually come off quite as awkward as Bella.  <3  P.S.-One more thing I'm really happy about.  While I was up in Maine he took me to see a movie.  That's my first time having been on a real date where someone pays for me.  Um, wow.  I'm extremely impressed.  And giddy.  But mostly impressed.

Less than 2 months until I'm back in Burlington.  I can't wait because I miss living everyday life with Ashley, Velvet, and Ryan, but then again...I'm going to miss Mitchell...a lot.  :'(  WHY ARE THERE NO CHEAP WAYS TO MAINE????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

*Sigh*  Oh well.  Time will tell in regards to that.

Anywho, I am going to go back trying to learn how to play League of Legends without dying an average of 7 times every game.  Much love to you all.  Hang in there.

<3 Megan <3

P.S. -RIP to Mitchell's golden retriever, Jake.  He finally moved on last night.
P.P.S. -Just for future reference-I am not planning on becoming a clown and making people cry as a career choice.  Just sayin'.